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Always Sunny In Philadelphia…

…That may be so, but it is not so here at Central. Our weather has been all over the place. Today was a rather nice day; however, it was a bit on the brisk side. Be that as it may, it was a fine day here on campus.

I was just thinking to myself a few days ago that I really ought write a post, but that there really wasn’t anything spectacular or ground breaking to post on. A variety of things pop into my head throughout the week that I think might make a good post, but by the time I get to a computer the thought is gone.

This week, however, I have been pushed to the keyboard.

This evening I experienced something that was not earth-shattering, but that doesn’t happen all that frequently. Think back to the summer I started this blogging journey, think far back to the beginning. At that time most of my postings were about an afternoon program I was running for children K-3, a program called The Caretakers’ Club.

Ah, yes! I can practically see your eyes growing large with the memory. 😉

Well this is Christian Perspectives Week here at Central and this evening we hosted the Fleer Lecture. The speaker was a wonderful woman, Rev. Rebekah Simon-Peter, and it just so happens that she authored and co-authored two of the books I used for The Caretakers’ Club!

It’s just not every day that you meet the author of the curriculum you use for one of these things. Besides that, her lecture really has the potential to light a fire under the feet of the people here to become more environmentally friendly as a part of our stewardship obligations! It was a really cool experience, to say the least.

Another cool thing happened this evening! I had somewhat fallen out of contact with my dear old penpal, you may know him as DinoMan. Well this evening when I jumped on here to finally write up a post, I had a comment waiting from him! Good thing too, because I had lost his email address! He’s been on my heart a lot lately, he and DinoGirl both, and I’m really glad to be back in touch with him.

In other news, I’m doing well. Life is a little crazy and it’s not always rainbows and unicorns, but it’s pretty good. I’m working on getting my applications in to seminaries, right now I’m waiting on some financial things to line up. That all makes me a little stressed, but I’m on track to graduate, so that’s something!

I’ve got a really good group of friends that are really making the difference in my life right now. I need to work on a few of those relationships, but I’m not falling apart anymore.

That is one thing I’d really like to work on as I embark on the next stage in my life. I’d like to be more emotionally stable. Yeah, I do alright, but in the course of the past four years, I’ve been a rollercoaster! And what makes me cringe is that my highs and lows are often a result of, even if not directly, my relationship status. I would like to find more of my identity within myself and within Christ. Not to toot my own horn, but it feels like I might finally be thinking like an adult.

I certainly FEEL like an adult with the way my schedule looks. Just to keep you in the loop, I’m now taking 17 credit hours(which includes Major Readings/Senior Project), working 19 a week, am on Service Scholars, and am running ΣAI. I’m learning some real problem solving skills as well as conflict resolution techniques. It’s exhausting most of the time, but I think I’m well on my way for being prepared for Grad School. My dad actually said the other day, “Welcome to adulthood!” And yeah, he was being pretty sarcastic, but it also kind of seemed like a compliment. 🙂

-Kay


Waiting For The Parade*

*A play about five women in Calgary, Canada during WWII, also the play I’ve been cast in!

Things have just been so fantastic this week! I received information on about 4 or 5 internships this week. The one I want the most will take me to Wisconsin! Milwaukee area, specifically. There are so many fantastic things that make this internship the one I can’t stop thinking about. There are five positions open, all five interns live in a house together for the summer, they lead mission trips and Bible studies and VBS, they help in the community gardens, they work in the Pleasant Valley United Methodist Church, and then there is a week trip to Rocky Mountain National Park where they commune with God and Nature and deepen their own spiritual relationships.

My description doesn’t do it justice! And there is no way to make you understand how excited this possibility makes me, how it makes my heart soar, or why. I also can’t explain why, on Tuesday at the Missions Fair, talking with the representatives of the various mission groups made me feel at home. It was the sense of, “ah, these people get it” that I feel so infrequently. Not that my friends and family don’t try, but most of them don’t have the desire, no, the need to get out into the world to spread peace and love and justice. The people I talked to on Tuesday, they got it, and I could feel it vibrating off of them as they spoke about the things they’re passionate about. That’s how I feel when I’m talking about these things too.

So there’s that. I also received my info packet from Princeton’s Seminary! Yeah, I’ll be applying. 🙂

I received an invitation to apply for membership in ODK, a collegiate honor society that focuses on leadership.

I auditioned, AND WAS CAST!!, in a play here at the university.

I understood, and enjoyed, my chemistry lab.

Lots of little things that all put together this week have made me feel like a million bucks. I feel successful and productive and lots of other good feeling things. 🙂 It’s awesome!

-Kay


Auf Wiedersehen

First, I would like to apologize for making a typing error in my last post. The confusion over the 4-sided triangle thing, yeah, I just got trigger happy. It has been corrected. My bad.

NOW! ON TO BUSINESS!

 

I leave for Chorale Tour in T-Minus 7 hours! Yay!!

I’m super excited! We sang our first concert of tour this evening(it doesn’t really count as tour having started, because it was just in the next town over, we car pooled, and returned to campus afterward). It was beautiful, if I do say so myself! I can’t wait to get on that bus tomorrow with my lovely friends and do nothing but SING for the next week! Yay! Yay! Yay!

This may not sound like fun to some of you, and for some it wouldn’t be, but this group includes some of my very best friends on campus and we get a little crazy and a little over-excited and it makes life very interesting! 🙂

Anyway, the point is: I will miss you, readers! Please keep thoughts of health and safe travels for my choir going this next week! I don’t want to sick! Yikes!

I would promise a blog post the moment I return, but, due to the mono issue, I will probably sleep for several days afterward. I will update sometime over Thanksgiving break, though! If it’s after, have a happy holiday everyone!

I love you, bloggers!

-Kay

 


Exciting Things Are Happening!

I’ve been in this office all week preparing for Sunday morning! I’m so excited and more than a little nervous, but that’s pretty normal for me. My sermon is just about complete, my slides are done, my order of worship is all flushed out and bulletins are ready to be printed! I’ve been very productive. 🙂

The pastor I’m interning under began talking with me today about the “pre-ministry” book I read last summer. As I was glimpsing through it beforehand something caught my eye that I hadn’t considred before. I reread those few pages about compus ministry an that avenue toward fulfilling your calling and I felt a family tug at my heartstrings. I’m nto sure what God’s telling me, but I’m going to explore that more, especially when I get back to campus in August.

Other exciting pieces of news:

Little Man and I went to a LINC sponsored event at the KC Public Library last night and had the opportunity to meet with Susan Pulgar. She is a remarkable woman, originally from Hungary, she became the first female Grand Master in chess at the age of 21.

Also, LA and I have been talking and yesterday it became official: he’s coming to visit me!!! 🙂 His plane will arrive at 330pm on Sunday, in time to enjoy some 4th of  July festivities, and he’ll be staying with us until August!

And I can’t recall whether or not I share this with you, but The Nerdmate will be coming to celebrate the 4th with my family and I and staying the week as well.

This means that my two favorite guys in the whole world will be here at the same time! I’m so supremely excited! I really hope they get along. I think they will, they both love me very much, after all!

Haha! I’m just kidding. They ave other things in common as well. 🙂

Anyway, I better get back to work. I was just so excited that I couldn’t keep it from my readers any longer! 🙂

Have a good one, folks.

-Kay


Agree To Disagree

My dear friend, Dinoman, and I have been penpals for about a year and a half now and we’re getting to the point in our friendship where I feel comfortable asking for advice in tricky situations and talking about the more difficult topics of conversation. One such conversation cropped up a few days ago. I asked him, because I know that individuals of his specific faith background tend to disagree with me on this, how he felt about female pastors. His response was beautiful, because even though I don’t agree with everything he believes, he let me know that he loved me as a sister in Christ nonetheless and that he wouldn’t judge another person by their faith even if he disagrees.I felt relief, because I may have decided that being a full fledged pastor wasn’t my thing, but that doesn’t change how I feel about women’s ordination rights and I don’t like losing good friends due to that vantage point.

Anyway, I wanted to share what Dinoman said, because he said it better than I could have.

As for a female pastor, well…if it’s what you want to do, that’s cool.  People will believe what they do and I am not going to change that. There’s absolutely nothing wrong with a woman who has a strong love of God and wants to share it.  Women should teach.  They should have leadership roles in the church, but I’m not totally sure that “pastor” is the proper forum for that.  I guess…I just feel like our gender is an essential part of our identity, in mortal life, of course, but also before and after.  The Lord set things in order the way He did for a reason. 

I think the idea of a Pastor in general isn’t exactly proper.  All clergy is supposed to be lay clergy (Acts 20; John 10)  It just allows the general membership opportunities to lead and share talents.  It also prevents using a position in the church to get gain.  There is no real upward mobility or aspiration to a higher calling.  You simply do as the Lord asks and do it to the best of your abilities.  Everybody plays a roll in teaching and stuff.  We all share together, which is how I think it should be.

And priesthood is a special, sacred thing.  You can’t just go out and claim to be saying what God wants without proper authority.  That, obviously, doesn’t mean one shouldn’t teach about Christ and set the example to bring others to Him, etc, but yeah…It’s not a thing where you get to have it by virtue of charisma, election, or some such. 

It’s just what it says in Hebrews 5:4.  Has to happen via calling from God, and we can add in Timothy 4:14 and Acts 8:18 that say that the calling comes through those who have authority to speak for the Lord.  It’s those who already have the priesthood from Christ–apostles and prophets, etc.  Then there’s an ordination that comes from the laying on of hands, not via any other means like in Acts where Simon wants to pay or whatever (I’m kind of crossing my stories, I think, but I know it’s somewhere in Acts).

That’s how things have worked in my life.  The direction comes (whether directly or through those others he’s called and delegated) through the prophet.  It’s the same organization that existed in the primitive church.  There was a falling away, as 2 Thessalonians said there would be, then the restoration and authority were later restored to the earth.

I’m sure that’s way more long-winded than the answer you actually wanted.  I have given it a LOT of thought though.  When I was younger, I took a lot of time alone to think about and study out what the truth is.  I’ve always believed in Christ and so that wasn’t an issue.  But I DID take time to read the Torah and the Quran and some other texts too.  I’ve read the Bible in its entirety.  And As I picked through it all, I kept coming back to Christ, so I dove into the Bible.  I found things that said “hey, My church will be like x, y, and z.”  Then I realized the church I’ve been in my whole life fits the criteria.

I read the Book of Mormon and found that it made sense.  But it’s not all logical either.  It’s about what my heart says and what makes me feel the Spirit of the Lord in my life.  This is it.  Others may agree or disagree, but I know what I know and I cannot deny it.  Nor will I. 

I respect the right of others to believe as they do.  I’m all for understanding each other and accepting differences.  I would fight to the death (well, okay, that might be a little over-dramatic, but I’d definitely stand up and fight at least some) for anybody’s religious freedom, no matter what religion.  All have bits of truth and great people.  If it inspires and encourages somebody to do good, I support it overall.  But…that doesn’t mean that I necessarily agree with or believe in all of the practices of my friends of other faiths.

-Kay


The Inaugral Humanities Conference

This afternoon I presented a paper on why having knowledge on the historical context of the New Testament is important and beneficial. I thought you, my readers, my interested in reading this paper A) because I’ve worked quite hard on it and B) because this is the kind of thing I’m working on here at school and I thought you might be interested.

The Importance of Historical Context

Most people who are familiar with the New Testament know it only on theological grounds. They do not typically know when it was written, who it was written for, or the context within which is was written. They may see these as unimportant insights or they may simply not have had the opportunity to expand their knowledge of the New Testament in these areas. Readers may abstain from the opportunity to understand the historical context for fear of faith crisis. However, knowing the historical context surrounding the New Testament is important, because it better allows the reader to understand the message that the New Testament authors were trying to convey to the audience of the time.
Religion played a big part in the lives of the people of the Greco-Roman world and, therefore, had a considerable impact on how they received and reacted to the stories about Jesus. The religions of the Roman Empire were vastly different than the religions most of us are familiar with in modern times. There was not much in the way of religious organization(Ehrman 18). They didn’t have set doctrines that were universally followed( Ehrman 18). Worship was based on the here and now, not on any sense of an afterlife(Ehrman 18). Individuals were not expected to wholly devote themselves to a single deity, and while ethics played a part in a person’s life, it was not because of a deep seated sense of obligation due to religion(Ehrman 18).
When the idea of monotheism began to develop within Judaism and early Christianity, it set those people apart. Inhabitants of the Greco-Roman world believed that not only were there multiple gods to be worshiped, but that daimonia and demigods existed and that all of these beings were to be appeased(Ehrman 28). As Ehrman says, “Jews, too, believed that there were immortal beings, far greater in power than humans, who existed somewhere between them and the true God… The difference was that Jews as a rule insisted that only the one Creator God… was to be worshiped.” People were apt to believe in and listen to the stories of Jesus’ miracles, because holy men and divine beings were prevalent in the Greco-Roman world(Ehrman 16). Just as other religions of the time believed that divine beings interacted with humans and sometimes appeared in human form, we find accounts within traditional Jewish teachings and outside the Hebrew Scriptures of men who seemed to have a special relationship with God(Ehrman 42).
Two such men were Hanina ben Dosa and Honi the “circle-drawer,” we know of both of these “sons of God” from the writings of Jewish rabbis(Ehrman 42). Ehrman says Honi “was given his nickname because of a tradition that he prayed to God for much-needed rain, and he drew a circle around himself on the ground, declaring that he would not leave it until God granted his request” (42). Like Jesus, Honi became a martyr of the faith outside of the city of Jerusalem around Passover (Ehrman 42). Hanina ben Dosa arrived on the scene sometime in the middle of the first century C.E. and was famous for his ability to perform miracles, healings, and exorcisms; like Honi, Hanina had the power to call on God for rain(Ehrman 42). In a similar fashion to what we hear in the story of Jesus’ baptism, Hanina was “reputedly called the Son of God by a voice coming from the heavens” (Ehrman 42). Each of these men are different in some ways than what we are taught about Jesus; they, for example, prayed for God to intervene, where Jesus performed miracles of his own power(Ehrman 42).
In today’s world, we see “son of God” and think Jesus, the one and only Son of God. It is important to know that that’s not how he was seen at the time of his ministry. He was one of many. Regardless of how similar or dissimilar Hanina and Honi were to Jesus, they were all three known as sons of God. People understood this to be a title given to someone who seemed to have been “chosen to stand in a special relationship with the God of Israel” (Ehrman 359).
Without this knowledge of the world that Christianity was born into, readers may have a difficult time understanding why texts were written and developed in a certain manner. For instance, each of the Gospel books tell the story of Jesus’ life in a different way. Most often we do not find complete agreement between the four books(Ehrman 51). This may be explained away by the fact that the earliest accounts of Jesus’ life were written roughly 35-65 years after his death(Ehrman 46) In the mean time, tales and teachings of this Son of God were being circulated via word of mouth, in most cases this was probably done in intimate small-group settings(Ehrman 47). Ehrman says, “They were told in different contexts, for different reasons, at different times” (48).
While knowing historical context is important, it can also cause problems for believers today. Because religion in the Greco-Roman world was viewed primarily as a way to find favor in the eyes of the gods, testifying to miraculous results due to faith in Jesus may have made converting pagans somewhat easier than what we think of today(47). Because these converts were made by telling stories of Jesus’ life via word of mouth, and because the interval between his death and our first written accounts of his life is so large, there is the possibility that the stories of Jesus we study today as the examples for our lives as Christians may be hyperbole or they may simply have changed due to a lack of first-hand experience with Jesus(Ehrman 48). Thus, when an individual is introduced to the historical context of the New Testament, his faith may be put to the test, because there is no way to know that the stories we have are accurate(Ehrman 49). In fact, they probably are not(Ehrman 53).
When faced with the idea that Jesus was not the only Jewish rabbi known as a son of God, we also must face the fact that this sheds further light onto the gospels. Jesus was not the only man that could perform miracles, he wasn’t even the only holy man known as a son of God. The writers of the gospels, therefore, may have made redactionary changes in order to show that Jesus was special even above and beyond these other sons of God.
For all we know, Jesus may have been just an ordinary man. We must, however,  take into consideration the fact that as the stories changed, they retained the spirit, if not the facts, of the originals. As Ehrman puts it, “They were meant to convince people that Jesus was the miracle-working Son of God whose death brought salvation to the world and to edify and instruct those who already believed” (54). Simply put, sometimes it was necessary and acceptable to change a fact here and there to better portray the theological truth within the story(Ehrman 54).
This issue and others like it are bound to arise when looking into the historical aspects of a religious text, but the discrepancies and possibility of faith crisis do not  nullify the importance of understanding the world within which an article of faith was written. After all, what kind of faith would it be, if it were without a working understanding of the very foundations of that faith? Often times knowing and understanding the historical context of these works can deepen our belief in them, because we better know and understand the way they were meant to be perceived.


The Name Of The Wind

*The name of this really awesome book that The Nerdmate is making me read. 🙂

Have I mentioned how great it is to be dating a guy that is as ridiculously nerdy in a gamer/book lover way as I am? Well it’s freaking fantastic! Tonight, for instance, I’m going over to The Nerdmate’s fraternity father’s room and we’re writing up character sheets for the D&D campaign that we want to start soon. I’m going to be playing a gnome monk, if you want to know. Also, as the disclaimer about the title indicates, we have a lot in common in the literature field as well. The Name Of The Wind is one of his favorite books, he’s read it four times and plans to read it once more before the new one comes out next month. Not only is the story line wonderful, but the language of the book is supremely crafted. AND WE TALK ABOUT IT! I’ve never talked with a guy about a book. L.A. or FellowNerd might be the exceptions to this.

———–Next Day——————-

Yeah, we definitely spent the majority of the evening talking about D&D. We even gotten into a debate over the merits and demerits of the various editions. Not one, but BOTH of my parents were chiming in via text message. They are disappointed in me for playing 4e, but that’s what the guys are playing. I’m just being a good sport.

In other news,

I had a REALLY fantastic voice lesson today! We only worked on two of my songs, but those two songs are going to be beastly! Both are really beautiful and are in my middle range where I can really take advantage of my voice. Prof. A. seems really excited and for once, so am I. I feel more confident in my voice than I have in quite some time. It’s a great feeling.

My Dot, The Nerdmate and I’s fraternity daughter, has been working really hard at learning her info for the Member In Training National Test in March. She’s been having a little difficult keeping up with her info and keeping up with her schoolwork, but I have complete confidence in her ability to do fabulously. The real stress factor is that to be accepted into the Nursing Program, there are certain classes she has to pass in the first try with a C or better; she got a C on her first test in Physiology. She has plenty of time to correct the situation, but it’s really got her on edge. We’re going to work this weekend on her info and make sure we leave time for her to do other homework.

I think that’s all the exciting things happening in life right now. I’ve been really happy lately and life is treating me nicely. The Nerdmate is definitely a contributing factor, but I feel like I gush about him a lot, so I’m just going to end the post on this note: Valentine’s Day is Monday and this will be the first year that I have a Valentine. 🙂

-Kay


Good Blogging Weather

On days like today, when it has managed to snow nonstop for the last 18hours and there is about 10inches on the ground, I just want to stay tucked up in bed with my nice fuzzy(and yes, polka dotted) blanket, computer, iPod, and book close at hand, and not have to step foot outside unless I suddenly feel the desire to have a snowball fight or go sledding. But no, classes were not canceled, which kind of amazes me, because in Missouri they cancel school for a dusting.

ANYWAY, we’re not going to talk about the weather, because for the first time in my existence(I can’t be sure on that, but I’m pretty sure) I’m upset about snow.  I didn’t make it to KC on Tuesday and darn it, if I don’t make it to KC tomorrow evening, I’m going to be very upset. Partially, because I’m going to run out of food I can eat, which would be no bueno no matter how you spin it.

Ok, done with weather talk.

Life is good. I honestly don’t have a lot to say. Classes are going well. I think my World Religions Today is going to be my favorite this semester, which seems strange considering our focus is Religious Violence: Myth or Fact. It’s fascinating stuff! I never realized that, as violent as people think religion makes you, most wars in modern history are political wars, matters of State, but no one finds that odd… hmmm. There will be more posts on this topic in the months to come, I’m just sure of it.

I also am really enjoying Astronomy, despite the fact that last night I was pretty sure I was going to lose toes due to frostbite. I’m now going to share with you my favorite things from lecture last night:

Science is bound by rules, where Religion is not. Scientists must be able to test hypothesis, Religion cannot necessarily test it’s teachings.

Because light travels at a finite speed, the farther out you look, the farther back in time you see.

Ok, I started this post a few days ago and had to run off to do something and this is the first time I’ve really had to sit at my computer since. I have SO MUCH to post about, but I really need to catch some Zs, so I’ll post tomorrow hopefully. Have wonderful weekends, all!

-Kay


Welcoming The New Year

I have to be honest, last night started off a little sketchy. You see, a couple of days ago my dear Milton, a 95(my BIL says 97) Civic that I love and adore, had a little hiccup. Well, it turns out it wasn’t a little hiccup. The clutch is a complete disaster and Milton is in no condition to be driven until the clutch is replaced. Luckily, BrownMan is really good with cars and is going to help me out with that. Unfortunately, that still means I have a few weeks until he’s ready to roar again.

Anyhow, last night on my way to the Bestie’s New Year’s Eve party, Milton lost it right then and there on the highway. I sat in a cold parking lot for 45 minutes waiting for my wonderful dad to come pick me up. I just sat there thinking to myself about all the things this car situation was going to mess up. I was just sure that my night was completely ruined and that I was going to have absolutely no fun as per usual. Yes, I was a bit of a pessimist last night.

I turned out to be quite wrong, actually. I had loads of fun. I’m not sure I’ve ever laughed so hard before. Adult parties are way more fun than those thrown by teenagers and college kids! We played Taboo for most of the night and there are some stories that will be rehashed for many years to come. I was also very glad to have the honor of being present for Peanut’s first New Year celebration. He was totally adorable, even if the little bugger wouldn’t sleep.

Today was equally fun. BabyBro had his 10th birthday party today! Yay! We went lazer tagging and then watched Voyage of the Dawn Treader! Loads of fun, even if little boys can get a little annoying in large doses. The movie was pretty good, better than I anticipated. I’m nervous about the direction the directors are taking the plot. The little differences between the movies and books are growing larger and larger and I think they may end up changing some of the theologies within the story as a whole. This concerns me, but I rather hope I’m wrong on this count.

Tomorrow I have my first day of training at the new gig, so I’m pretty excited. I’m also a bit nervous, to be honest. I know I shouldn’t be, but rational thoughts are almost always out weighed by my irrational ones. I guess that’s just part of the fun of being me! Wish me luck friends!

-Kay


God Bless Us Everyone!

Happy Christmas to you all! I hope it was warm and festive for all of you, dear friends. I hope that you, like myself, enjoyed the terrific company of your families(both those by relation and “extension”).

I really did have a fantastic Christmas. I don’t know if it’s because of everything I’ve dealt with this semester or if I’ve changed somehow in the last year or some other cause, but this holiday I have felt so much love and I feel like I’ve been more appreciative of everything I’ve been given.

I don’t have much to write about. I don’t want to bore you all with a list of all the wonderful things that I’ve experienced in the last week. I do want to express my complete gratitude for the respectful and insightful conversation brought about by my last post. I know that sex is heavy topic. Even people who are casual about talking and acting out their views on the subject, often have a difficult time discussing what it means to them and why they behave the way the do. Thank you to all who shared.

Also, and this is big, we’ve had several first time commenters in the last week and I want to tell you all how much that means to me. First, you’re taking a moment to get to know me a little better when you read one of my posts and by commenting you’re going that extra mile to let me know you care. I truly consider you, by blog family, friends that I can count on. Thank you for that.

And now I need to update you. WK called. We’re not getting back together. He said the reason he hadn’t called was because all the words he could think of to say what he was thinking and feeling wouldn’t have been the words of a friend. He does want us to be friends, but he doesn’t think we can be more than that. Surprisingly, I’m doing really well with that. I think maybe, in some ways, I was prepared for that outcome. I am at peace with it. If WK and I are meant to be, we will be in the end.

In the meantime, L.A. has thrown me for a loop. He and I have a history. As I’ve said before, we’ve been friends for quite some time, but only in the last several months have we really gotten close. I talk to him every day and I count him as my best friend other than the Bestie(obviously). The thing about L.A. is that I’ve had feelings for him for almost the entirety of our friendship. He is well aware of that, because we have discussed it and the possibility of him having feelings on several occasions. The end result was always clear, he liked me as a person and a friend, but nothing more was going to come of it. Now he’s gone and told me that he wasn’t 100% honest with me about that. What I can’t figure is the extent or context of these feelings. Sometimes it feels like he would like to be more than friends, and others I get the distinct “best friend but never girlfriend” vibe. I don’t really know what to do with the situation and I don’t think he does either, so we’re currently just not. “It’ll be the same. Only now you know.” Right. But I’m still confused. Lol.

I know he’ll read this in the next few days(he always does) and figure that he’ll have to try and explain all over again. Fear not, L.A. I’m willing to just ride the waves and see what happens. You’re my best friend and I love it that way. If you decide you want to be more than friends, even if you don’t, we’ll cross that bridge when we get there. Currently, my plan is to just take it one day at a time. This is new for me. And a little scary. But I’m not as scared as I thought I’d be. I trust you. And with all we’ve been through, all the fights and frustration that we have in our past, I know we, as friends, can make it through anything. Together. And if that was too sappy for you, just think of it as payback for your mushy best friend talk the last few days. :-p

-Kay


Tour Is Over!

The last six days have been some of the most memorable of my life and I can’t wait to do it all again next year!

For those of you who didn’t know or have forgotten, I was on tour with the top choir at my university, the Chorale. We performed for 8 schools and 5 churches, multiple performances at most of those. If we counted correctly, we gave approximately twenty concerts in six days.Here’s the list:

Central Methodist University

Jeff City High School

Smith Cotton High School

Marshfield UMC

Central High School(Springfield)

Willard High School

Monett UMC

Branson UMC

Branson UMC Worship Services

West Plains UMC

West Plains High School

Rolla High School

Rolla UMC

Rockbridge High School

Centralia High School

It was long and strenuous and I barely have a voice left, but for the first time in quite a while I felt like I was really a part of a group again. I also felt like I mattered within the group, like the group would be somehow lesser without me. Maybe that’s arrogant, but I’ve been missing that feeling since I graduated high school. And I know that most of the other students would tell you that the worst part of it all was being stuck on a bus with 33 other college students plus our director, but that was the best of it all. We bonded in a way that no one else in the Conservatory has bonded together. The band tours, yes, but that’s a much larger group and, therefore, is unable to form the same kinds of bonds that were formed this last week within the Chorale. Also, I won the Most Ghetto Award and Marshall and I won Best Tour Romance, so that’s pretty awesome too.

As we approach Thanksgiving, just a few hours away, I have many things to be thankful for. I’m thankful to be home with my family, to have had such a wonderful tour experience, to have wonderful friends that have stuck by me through so much, to have a loving Savior that continues to bless my life in new ways, and for you, dear bloggers. Thank you for being there to listen to me, even when I’m feeling low. You really do mean the world to me.

-Kay


Quote Of The Day

Yesterday I posted this quote from my Philosophy professor:

“If you were walking through the woods and came across a pocket watch, would you know it as man made? How then can you look on the universe in all it’s complexity and deny the existence of a creator.” –O.A. Robinson

I really love this quote, so I posted it as my FB status. I haven’t decided if that was a mistake or not. There have been several long and extensive comments left by four or five people(mostly male coincidentally enough, but that’s a discussion for another day). I’m really loving the discussion aspect of it, because that’s what I do! I discuss religion and philosophy for a hobby and one day for a living. The only problem with this has become the fact that not everyone knows how to verbalize their thinking without getting upset.

I am the kind of person that remains cool for quite a while in these discussions, because I have trained myself to do so. I also intentionally engage with people who disagree with me so that I can check the strength of my argument, find the holes in my argument so that I can then fix them, etc, etc. I love hearing what other people think about the origins of the universe, the existence of God, and so on and so forth. I fully believe that an uninformed faith is no faith at all.

I once had a professor tell me, “Most people get to college and lose God, because of their education. That doesn’t have to be the case. I am a theologian, because my education taught me more about God and my faith in Him than I ever thought possible before that point.”

Education and science and philosophy are only the downfall of a belief if you let them be. I’m not saying that you need to accept every opinion you hear about something, but I am saying that you need to be more careful. Take the time to really listen to what the other view point has to say, because it may teach you a little something about what you yourself believe.

Now I have to go finish my homework that I haven’t done yet, because I’ve been so caught up in this debate/discussion.

CHORALE TOUR IN 1.5ISH DAYS!!!!!

-Kay


Popcorn and Fruit By The Foot

I don’t really have the energy to write a full-blown blog post right now, but I wanted to give you all a quick update.

I’m doing ok. I honestly am. I haven’t had the big mental/emotional meltdown that everyone thought I was going to have. We’ll just have to see how this weekend goes.

Speaking of this weekend! It’s going to be jam-packed with tons of fun Halloween activities! Tomorrow night, for example, is a super special ΣAI Halloween Membership Recruitment Activity that will immediately follow the Halloween Organ Recital! Yay Central for being awesome!

Anyway… I’ll update either tomorrow night or Saturday with how things are going.

For now, I’m going to resolve the bad day I’ve had by watching the Sound of Music and eating popcorn and Fruit-By-The-Foot(the latter provided by my endearing, and quite lovely, BigSis!

-Kay


So Much More Than Empty Conversations

Tonight is all about a very special young lady that lives on my floor of my dorm hall.

This evening I was sitting in my dorm room with GhettoGirl when BicylceKate walks in with a box of Cinnamon Chex and Silk soy milk in her hands.

She said she had read my blog and wanted me to have them.

She even put a pretty pink bow on the Silk carton.

This post is dedicated to her, because she honestly made my night.

It just goes to show, a simple act of kindness(especially the random ones) can make lasting impressions on people.

Let’s all learn from BicycleKate. I encourage each and every one of you to do something this week for someone else without being asked and without hope of reward. If you need examples of what I mean, check out the movie Pay It Forward.

-Kay


A Literary Genius

Of  whom do I speak?

The answer is, quite simply, Jane Austen.

This evening was the first night of the new Jane Austen Book Club on campus. I’m incredibly excited about it, because Pride&Prejudice is my ALL TIME favorite book. I love Ms. Austen’s writing style and the way just about anyone can jump into the place of the main character in her books. We are, of course, starting with Pride&Prejudice. We haven’t quite decided where to go from there. We may read another Austen novel, or we might try Pride&Prejudice and Zombies. We might even try a novel by a Bronte or two.

Because I love Pride&Prejudice so very much, and because the paper back volume we used when I was home schooled is now falling apart due to frequent use, I got it into my mind that I wanted a nice copy of this beloved tale. I’ve been looking for one and things were always the same, either I couldn’t find a hard bound copy or I couldn’t justify the cost. This evening, however, was different. My good friends, The Gingers, and I took a trip to Barnes&Noble. There, after much searching and plenty of laughter, we stumbled upon a leather bound anthology containing seven novels by Jane Austen. The best part: it only cost me twenty dollars. Now, that’s a lot for a college girl that is struggling with financial complications, so I called my mom. She told me to get it. She didn’t hesitate, so I spoiled myself.

Today has truly been a fantastic day. I spent quality time with Ms. Austen and The Gingers, I cleaned my dorm room, I talked to the WhiteKnight, I talked to his father, and I had tasty pumpkiny coffee! There are many other factors that contributed to this wonderful day, but right now I am so tired that I can’t remember. I hope that God continues to bless me with more days like this.


Baby Don’t Worry, You Can Stand Under My Umbrella

Let me start by saying that I’m sorry for not posting last night. Now let me tell you why that was: my weekend was JAM-PACKED full of awesome adventures. As you know, Friday was Little Sister’s very late birthday party. Saturday we took my God-son, Peanut, to the zoo for the first time. It was very exciting! We even got to see the new polar bear, Nikita!!!! YAY!

Then my dad’s fraternity brothers all got together with their families for a BBQ. It was pretty fun, but at times a little awkward hearing the some of their stories. Also, they all referred to each other by their last names. Then Big Sister and I met Big Sister’s brother on the other side(Big Sister is my half sister) and his girlfriend and went down to Irish Fest at Crown Center. It was amazing! As my sister so brilliantly said, “All these people here to celebrate our heritage. How nice of them!” Haha, I love her! There was also this really weird country band from Nova Scotia. The lead singer kept saying their music had a “Gaelic twist,” but I didn’t hear it. It was just plain odd. After Irish Fest, we headed over to Buffalo Wild Wings to meet my brother-in-law, Brown Man, because he had just gotten back from an Omaha car thing. Needless to say, we got back to their house  incredibly late and I was very thankful that the guest bed had been set-up already in their brand-spanking-new house. Today we all slept in and it was quite nice even though I missed church. I think God will understand. I mean, I don’t get to see Big Sis that often. Then this afternoon, I met Bestie and Peanut for Santacaligon Days. It’s a HUGE street fair that happens every year over the four days of Labor Day weekend. We always go and look at the cool crafts and stuff. We drove out to her grandma’s house and picked up The Cool Mom and Bestie’s grandma, leaving The Cool Dad and Bestie’s grandpa to install the new vent over the stove, and drove over to the fair. We had lots of fun and, surprisingly enough, got away with basically just buying food. We were quite proud of ourselves. Then Bestie, Peanut, and I went over to our good buddy The Ginger Kid’s house. The Ginger Kid and The Wifey were having a “bonfire.” I’m not sure you can qualify it as a bonfire, but we had fun hanging out. All-in-all, it was a fun, exciting, and highly random weekend. Tomorrow I’ll be heading back to school with Mama O and Daddy O.

If you made it through the mess above, CONGRATULATIONS!!! That means you can now officially understanding “Kayla Speak.” As you can see, it’s been a long weekend. I wish the post was longer and more detailed, but I wanted to get all of the events into a post before I forgot. NOW I’m going to go get a decent night’s sleep! Hooray!

-Kay


GenCon Indy

GenCon Indy is just about every nerd’s dream vacation. Especially the kind of nerd that is a gamer. I know what you’re thinking, this doesn’t sound like the kind of thing that a future pastor/youth director would attend, but I’ve been waiting all year for this. We have spent the last two days getting everything ready to go. My roommate from school is coming to stay at my parents house while we’re gone to watch over the place and the gardens and the animals. The only thing she won’t be doing is feeding Fang, the snake, and Thor, the turtle. We leave tomorrow at 4am. It’s worth it. Anyway, I know this is a short post, but I wanted to keep everyone updated. I’ll have plenty of stories to tell next Monday upon my return! Bye, friends!