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You Pull Me Closer To Love

I know that it’s been a very long while since I last posted. I’m very sorry. There will be a longer post in the near future where I will tell exactly every little thing that’s been going on in these three weeks, but right now I’m tired and have only one thought on my mind.

The Nerdmate.

He came up for the weekend.

He’s back in his own home now and I miss him already.

But here’s the kicker:

I’m in love with him.

And I can’t think on anything else for the time being, because it makes me sublimely happy.



The Prophetic Voice

Written for my Prophets class.

Last night a whole nation celebrated the death of a single man, Osama bin Laden. The people of the world seem to have mixed feelings about this man’s death, but the masses seem most concerned with the feelings of joy and relief. The prophetic voice would speak out against these celebrators, condemning their joy and emphasizing the need to instead celebrate the value of life.
Between the times of the news outbreak on Sunday, May 1, and May 2 at 1pm, alone had 88 million global page views and 13.8 million global video starts ( Even Facebook and Twitter have become outlets of joy concerning bin Laden’s death. says,
“There have been 9 posts on the death of bin Laden which have generated over 52,000 likes and comments. The top post was: Breaking News: Osama bin Laden is dead, CNN John King’s reported Sunday night, citing sources, and it had over 10,000 interactions, the highest level ever recorded. This is already 35% higher than the number of interactions surrounding the Japan quake and tsunami that was tracked for 6 days.”
The voice of the prophets would be well used in the face of the celebrations over this man’s death. In today’s world, sign acts would probably be less than useful as people have all varieties of “acceptable” behavior and most things, such as taking a wife of whoredom as Hosea did, are tolerated without second thought. Still, the prophets would probably have something to say about all of this. The prophetic voice would instead come in the form of poetry and song, speeches and dramatic interpretations.
The prophetic voice would criticize the amount of joy conceived by the death of Osama bin Laden. The world would be reminded that every life is valuable and that as the creator, God is the only one that has the right to take the life of another. The author of the Gospel ofMatthew says, “Agree with your adversary quickly, while you are with him in the way; lest perhaps the prosecutor deliver you to the judge, and the judge deliver you to the officer, and you be cast into prison.” The world should be less hasty to rejoice over the death of one man, for the Lord may choose to judge them murderers of the heart for it.
Brueggemann says, “the notion of human justice and compassion is rarely a foremost factor in ordering a community” (22). The world may view Osama bin Laden’s death as a kind of justice, but what about the second portion of that? Is it compassionate to celebrate this man’s death? No, the compassionate thing to do would be to treat this as an act of war, something that may have been necessary, but ultimately, a somber act, not something worthy of celebration.
The prophetic voice would be used here to energize and encourage people to think about the life of other individuals, even one’s enemies, as something worthy of protecting. Let the world instead rejoice over acts of peace and events on the global stage that bring peoples together, not events that will lead to further violence. The prophetic voice would charge people to care for each other, the sick, the needy, even one’s enemies; because life is a beautiful and none should be lost without great sorrow.
Osama bin Laden’s death may have been a military victory on the part of the United State, but the loss of his life is not something to be celebrated. The prophets of old would criticize the people of the world for rejoicing over such an event and encourage them to instead take actions that draw people closer together.


Agree To Disagree

My dear friend, Dinoman, and I have been penpals for about a year and a half now and we’re getting to the point in our friendship where I feel comfortable asking for advice in tricky situations and talking about the more difficult topics of conversation. One such conversation cropped up a few days ago. I asked him, because I know that individuals of his specific faith background tend to disagree with me on this, how he felt about female pastors. His response was beautiful, because even though I don’t agree with everything he believes, he let me know that he loved me as a sister in Christ nonetheless and that he wouldn’t judge another person by their faith even if he disagrees.I felt relief, because I may have decided that being a full fledged pastor wasn’t my thing, but that doesn’t change how I feel about women’s ordination rights and I don’t like losing good friends due to that vantage point.

Anyway, I wanted to share what Dinoman said, because he said it better than I could have.

As for a female pastor, well…if it’s what you want to do, that’s cool.  People will believe what they do and I am not going to change that. There’s absolutely nothing wrong with a woman who has a strong love of God and wants to share it.  Women should teach.  They should have leadership roles in the church, but I’m not totally sure that “pastor” is the proper forum for that.  I guess…I just feel like our gender is an essential part of our identity, in mortal life, of course, but also before and after.  The Lord set things in order the way He did for a reason. 

I think the idea of a Pastor in general isn’t exactly proper.  All clergy is supposed to be lay clergy (Acts 20; John 10)  It just allows the general membership opportunities to lead and share talents.  It also prevents using a position in the church to get gain.  There is no real upward mobility or aspiration to a higher calling.  You simply do as the Lord asks and do it to the best of your abilities.  Everybody plays a roll in teaching and stuff.  We all share together, which is how I think it should be.

And priesthood is a special, sacred thing.  You can’t just go out and claim to be saying what God wants without proper authority.  That, obviously, doesn’t mean one shouldn’t teach about Christ and set the example to bring others to Him, etc, but yeah…It’s not a thing where you get to have it by virtue of charisma, election, or some such. 

It’s just what it says in Hebrews 5:4.  Has to happen via calling from God, and we can add in Timothy 4:14 and Acts 8:18 that say that the calling comes through those who have authority to speak for the Lord.  It’s those who already have the priesthood from Christ–apostles and prophets, etc.  Then there’s an ordination that comes from the laying on of hands, not via any other means like in Acts where Simon wants to pay or whatever (I’m kind of crossing my stories, I think, but I know it’s somewhere in Acts).

That’s how things have worked in my life.  The direction comes (whether directly or through those others he’s called and delegated) through the prophet.  It’s the same organization that existed in the primitive church.  There was a falling away, as 2 Thessalonians said there would be, then the restoration and authority were later restored to the earth.

I’m sure that’s way more long-winded than the answer you actually wanted.  I have given it a LOT of thought though.  When I was younger, I took a lot of time alone to think about and study out what the truth is.  I’ve always believed in Christ and so that wasn’t an issue.  But I DID take time to read the Torah and the Quran and some other texts too.  I’ve read the Bible in its entirety.  And As I picked through it all, I kept coming back to Christ, so I dove into the Bible.  I found things that said “hey, My church will be like x, y, and z.”  Then I realized the church I’ve been in my whole life fits the criteria.

I read the Book of Mormon and found that it made sense.  But it’s not all logical either.  It’s about what my heart says and what makes me feel the Spirit of the Lord in my life.  This is it.  Others may agree or disagree, but I know what I know and I cannot deny it.  Nor will I. 

I respect the right of others to believe as they do.  I’m all for understanding each other and accepting differences.  I would fight to the death (well, okay, that might be a little over-dramatic, but I’d definitely stand up and fight at least some) for anybody’s religious freedom, no matter what religion.  All have bits of truth and great people.  If it inspires and encourages somebody to do good, I support it overall.  But…that doesn’t mean that I necessarily agree with or believe in all of the practices of my friends of other faiths.